Glasses

We had figured to get the glasses on Sunday, but after sitting at home calculating (the next day was mothers day and we were figuring out when we would be doing the exercises, we were trying a few things at home real fast and quickly realized that it was not going to be easy dealing with 4 hours of patching and retraining the eye that needed the help. We also wanted to start her off properly and knew we should get the training started without them.

We hopped online and checked for Lens Crafters near us. Found one close by and headed to it stat. This was the part i was not expecting. I had held my own throughout the day and the whole ordeal. She went in and very happily picked out glasses. I was on the other side of the place and when she came running to show me i didnt know what happened. I just broke down and had to leave, i held my own long enough to tell her that they looked great but that was it, after that i lost it. I walked out of the store so she wouldn't see me crying.

The thoughts that rushed through me were many, bullying, name calling, treated differently, never seeing 20/20, glasses breaking, crying because of having my glasses broken, literally just not seeing, and knowing what it was like. As i write this it fucking kills me because i know what she will have to endure, and i wont be able to do anything about it, just hopefully show her how o get through it. Show her that kids will be kids and that she is still MY FUCKING HEART!!!!! AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!